rant #2

ok, so im trying to document my weird dreams as much as possible. i always wake up extremely scared for some reason, and can never get a good sleep, trats why i take small naps during the day, being summer and all.

the past few months have been ok, i havent dreamt things so bad anymore, since i can barely recall sleeping at all with the academic stress and my finals:,)

but tonight though, typing at 2:35 am, i woke up from maybe one of the most vivid dreams ive ever had.

so it went like this:

i was in some kinda prison, alongside hundreds or maybe thousands, and somehow the prison collapsed, and we, ALL thousands of us were just left there. i was a lot younger, because i can perfectly remember that i was carried on a persons shoulders, who i was calling mom, but that was clearly not my mom. i remember children, old people, sick people, all kinds just imprisoned and held there. we escaped by a lsmall ake with boats, then by one of those trains that transport coal. i can remember the dusty smell of the underground tunnels, the bricks that were falling, the scared faces of people ive never seen, it was honestly insane. i remember going through a check, the ones you go through at an airport, and the person who im gonna call a guard was overweight but had a kind face, despite the not so kind surroundings.

i did some research and the most similar historical events that i found:

The Kengir Uprising, in which thousands of prisoners revolted and took over the camp in 40 days i think, the camp im referring to is a massive soviet gulag. its similar to my dream because the camp was built near a large artificial reservoir, therefore the lake i dreamt of. those camps were built near rail lines to ship resources, and the fleeing prisoners tried to hop onto those "trains" to escape, therefore the train part.

There is also a small similarity with the nazist concentration camps, in which they exterminated jews. I can vaguely remember if we wore some distinct uniform, but the surroundings reminded me of the brutality. the soldiers, or guards, or whatever, i remember they wore uniforms, but i cant remember the exact colors.

this is all i have for now.

its so crazy that i dreamt of this, because i didnt do research on any of these topics before i went to bed. i never even knew about the Kengir Uprising to begin with, i never knew it existed. though i knew gulags existed, since i am half russian. i am romanian, and i just remebered that in my dream, someone asked me to lie if the soldiers asked me who was in charge of the country. and it just clicked to me that the time periods dont match at all, because the fall of communism in romania was in 1989, and those events date back to the 1950s and 1940s.

my head is hurting and my eyes are burning.