hangoutwithmeplease ):>

I failed my finals idk how i failed this hard but clearly it's because god hates me. I cried for 2 days. I'm so ashamed my grandma has been texting me but I've been ignoring her because I don't want her to know. My dad failed it when he was my age I can't tell her I failed it too. At least I didn't beat the shit out of my corrector. I also humiliated myself on that same day but I don't wanna get into it or else I'll puke. AAAAAAAAAGH !!!! Also none of my friends wanna hangout with me but not in a mean way I think. it's just that they have other things to do or they're too tired. I feel like a fat fucking chud. I've been begging to hangout to a point where it's pathetic and I think I'm gonna stop. I feel like Pinkie Pie in that one episode where she went bananas over her friends not wanting to hangout with her 24/7. He just like me fr fr. Also there's still no wifi in my house and I've been holding onto my 4G for dear life. I lied to my instagram account saying I'd concentrate on my portfolio but the truth is that all day I watch bunch of friends videos over and over again until they upload on saturday. And when I'm not doing that I'm watching their fan edits. Even my mom's gone now so I have like no one to talk to except for my uncle who comes over sometimes. He helped me beat the first boss in Final Fantasy VII. I love that game but omfg am I bad at geolocalization. I should feel lucky I'm not in pain or dying of thirst but I don't fucking care I am not spending my whole summer playing ff7. I miss my friends I wanna see my friends I wanna fuck and I wanna get wasted. May this summer be great and may at least one school accept me next year. Ameen. (or whatever I'm not sure about God) On the topic of God! Actually no I don't wanna think I'm gonna go watch Youtube smile asmr videos and a whole bag of chips. Fuck you. 

song of the moment: Exclusive Royal Canterlot Wedding playset - Cats Millionaire