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did i pull u in with that title? I dont listen to the lad but everyone else around me does soooo. I hate this, everytime i call out to this server im in asking if they wanna play a game with me, its only targeted for one person. I'm too scared, awkward, anxious, and honestly too nervous to ask them personally. I just want them to respond to me and say "Yeah I wanna play!". overall I just like them the most out of this entire friend group but honestly I feel like this cool fun relationship we had just made had crumbled right infront of our eyes. this keeps me awake.

I hate this, oh and I have this other friend they talk to and they seem super duper close, sooo I kinda dont wanna ruin that either, or get jealous over something that dumb. honestly I really relate to this quote from one of my favorite movies, call me by your name, "is it better to speak or to die?" I always think in my mind "its better to speak, because what if you never get this opportunity again? okay looking back at this blog it was corny