rant 3 ☽

nyello im back agajn hejenebeb

there isn't much to rant about... just some update blog i wanted to post. 

so basically after the psych ward i was able to go to a rehabilitation clinic for people who had attempted sui*de before and that took like 6 months... but yes im finally in it and i get to do daily tasks and stuff, more or less to just be busy with something. my mental health has been fine until now, i'm struggling a lot again tbh. I wish the people I meet online were more considerate of my mental health since it's written in my strawpage that i'm severely depressed and... yeah i'm just easily affected by mentions of sui*de or even pictures of injuries / hospitals and shit. it also really hurts since they were a person i was crushing on and now i just feel so guilty for not talking to them because of my selfish ass needing some space.

im off discord for a while, hopefully all of july but i do miss chatting in public chats with people who aren't that interested in me~ i keep being called 'mommy' just cuz i look attractive but honestly i look like a total loser. my hips and chest are too big

aside that i've been drawing and playing a lot of genshin and honkai star rail. OMG AVENTURINE'S SP IS SO FINEEEEEE I NEED DR. RATIO BUT OMFGGGG im so ughhhh I need to skip this aventurine for dr. ratio cause I have a guranteed :<

unless I don't~ we'll see how useful he is for dr. ratio... sandwiched between two aventurines... LOL THATS SO FIRE

ahhh man ... i rly need to get my shit together man. how do you guys get over a crush? i need it gone asap. I can't be having mentally ill people in my life it makes me go fucking insane. no hate to anyone whos also struggling i just wish i wasn't so the topic isn't so unbearable for me. any traumadump makes me instantly regret existing lol. but thAtS wHy sOme blOgs ArE priVatE!!!! 🤓🤓🤓 ok bye

shoutout to nihly for looking out for me (you're the only person who keeps dealing with my bs)

6/30/26