After graduation

After graduating high school, I lowk don't know what to do. 

Honestly, I am unemploymentmaxxing everyday and I just feel like I NEED TO DO SOMETHING. 

And also normally people go to uni right after high school, but for me I am taking gap year and idk if this is even going to work. 

Also I am 1 year younger than most of the people in my year, so lowk I can't go out and have cute drinks or whatever. So kinda boring in a way, but yk there are sm things to do rather than drinking alcohol 24/7. However, the point is I feel left out after graduating high school. 

I always kind of knew that I am step behind from the people in my year, but after graduation it just became worse. And it is more about what to do after high school as I didn't even get into uni yet. 

However, tbh my life is also very peaceful these days. 

I have been baking, binge watching series, and hanging out w my friends. Like I feel so calm and healed. Btw no one is bothering me these days and I don't have to deal w any bs around the school. And although I talked about being left out, I feel less pressured with trying to chase other people bc I don't see them. 

So, lowk I can say that I am having most peaceful crashout in my life. Like I am so worried about the future but, also managing that stress at the same time. 

I hope everything goes well (esp w my uni...) in life. 

At least high school is over YAY!!