socialized yay!! so much fun today!!

omgg i had such a fun day todayyy! 

A little awkward sometimes but hey i talked to two ppl around my age. Im literally so awesome for that. Im usually so awkward- i mean i still was but i made a effort to talk to ppl and thats what matters to me!!! 

I honestly really want more friends, especially my age or 1-2 years older. Im so sick of not having anyone to talk to, or not getting any responses. I think im a social person at heart but unfortunately with social anxiety hahah.

I talked to a guy at a library and he was chill/cool. And i hope he isnt like 20 or smth cus im immediately out of there. 

my idiot brain didnt even ask for his stupid name. But i might see/talk to him next week. i really want friends ughhh, hope i can make new ones later on in life. Awkward silence freaks me out so much i sometimes feel like saying the most out of pocket thing ever.

Imo i think im a chill person to be around, and i hope its true or atleast half true ughh cus i sometimes dont have much to say aaa. And maybe my stuttering makes me look more stupid than chill. I hope ppl think im at least a little cool. but those are just empty thoughts.

random but, my brother and i ended up scheming and bought my older sister the new bts album meuheheheh

then i got home and it all got SHlTTY. sigh.