Diary entry #06

this is kinda my first diary entry on spacehey bcs my other ones are just dumped on my yt

unfortunately school is starting again and I think this shi is genuinely going to drive me mad again. I've got this crazy friend and idk if its the toxic masculinity from his father but he genuinely doesn't tell me his problems anymore. he says he can handle them on his own but I know he cant. because it is starting to affect our friendship. Its like he's never available anymore and he says he's just tired, which I understand. But what I don't get is why he doesn't tell me these things. He says that I mean a lot to him and that I'm his favorite person. He used to vent to me about his ex and his family pressuring him to meet expectations. And now he doesn't even talk to me anymore. He's so busy pushing himself to compete in math competitions and being so productive. I could go on and on about how much he's pushing himself and how unhealthy this is for him and how its also affecting our friendship. but now that im writing thing and reading the bs i just wrote, I dont know if its even worth going into detail for.

I know its wrong for me to rant abt smth personal for strangers online to see but this is lowk my cry for help. Ik this will probably be crazy digital footprint but i couldn't really care less. I really hope this reaches someone in the same situation or have been in a similar situation. i reallyyyy need advice on how to handle ts :((