been shit writing in my notes

i am repentant

i dont help myself

i stare in the mirror for every second

cant take my eyes off him

i am Hans Bellmer's muse

weightless and worthless

i overshot my meaning in this world

i am not for your amusement

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im sat in underwear and heels

for a second i feel sexy

the people i love are fucking each other

everything i like is arbitrary

i wish i could play around with what God gave me

even the extremity of my desire is not enough for me

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