Life

I'm so tired of life, it's like every day just gets worse. And I try to look at everything lightly and in a good perspective but I just can't anymore, I've been waiting for my partner to leave me for awhile cause I know it's inevitable and I want to feel pain again, I want to cut. I want to end it. But with him in my life I can't do it. He stops me every time with stressing threats. I can't do it anymore