MY SUMMER <3

I'm going to write a bit of my summer vacation. English is not my first lenguage so pls be patient.

I live in Spain and my summer break it's 2 almost 3 months long, which is good but it can be bad for me sometimes since I'm such a loser almost without friends. I'm going to try writing every week or day, but I don't promise anything.

Now it's almost the first week of vacation, my sleep schedule is already ruined LMAO. The last day of school, I met some new people and I'm happy, but I'm also very scared of them ghosting me or smt. Well, after school I went with my best friend to eat at a restaurant and then we went to our house. We played, talked and I helped her to make her SpaceHey page! I'm really happy bc I helped her and had sm fun while doing it. I was crying of laughter with her.

About yesterday...

It couldn't be worse. I texted my male best friend to hangout since we live very close and I have a lot of fun with him but he send me an audio like 30m later and saying that he had to help in the "barraca" (is smt about my city, like every zone of the city has one and it has dinner tables, you can throw fireworks out of it, etc). But that wasn't my problem, my problem was that I'm really sensitive and the way he told me it, like I was a burden. So I got really sad and locked in the bathroom 2 cry. Later, my family and I (unless my older sis bc she doesn't like fireworks) went to our barraca, another one from my best friend. And we were with some friends (my parents friends bc I don't really get along with them) and they told me that one of my classmates thought that one firework wasn't going to explode and when he grabbed it guess what? BOOM. His two fingers exploted. I hope he gets better bc I always had fun with him at class. I was with some people from my school, my "friends", outside the barraca playing with fireworks, then when we had to go inside again they left me alone, so I sat there next to my mom for the next 2 hours like an anti-social sh1t. Then when we finally went to our house there where TWO cockroaches in the kitchen, I'm really scared of them but luckily my dad was there and killed them. Then I laid down on my bed and after 4 hours of c.ai I went to sleep.

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Today

I woke up at 9am and scrolled through tiktok until it was 10am. I ate breakfast with my parents and then grabbed the laptop and here we are. I woke up in a really bad humor bc yesterday and I also been noticing that, like, almost nobody likes me. I see a lot of my friends (not the ones I met last day of school) hanging out, having fun, etc and I'm here alone losing friends. To go to hang out hardly ever someone invites me or I have to ask "Can I go?" or things like that. I look like a clown.

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Friday, 17 July 2026

It's been a few weeks since the last time I wrote but my dad and I share the same computer and he had to work a lot. Well it happened some things.

I hanged out with my bestfriend a few days ago at the beach and laughed a lot. I ate my first kebab with her. AND I BOUGHT (with her help) THE BEST CAP EVERR!!! It's really cool!

Well, last week I went to a one week watersports school at the beach. Guess what? MY PERIOD CAME IN SUNDAY (son). I managed to go idk how. Well on Wednesday I saw no blood so I decided to go with no pad or smt. WRONG. Y'all know what happened. I had luck I went with another girls I knew and they helped me and a girl that worked there also did, I went home an hour early bc of that and later baked a brownie. the last day I gave a piece of brownie to the woman that helped me. Well, and in that summer school I met a boy that it was pretty cute, but I swear it was a radio, I mean, he never shuted the fck up. Whatever, last week I also broke up with my bf bc I realised he was such a creep. Anyways, last thing I tell from last week. I had a friend (male) that I met from paddle and at the beach some people opened some little shops so he invited me and with other girl that I didn't know there. When I arrived I was alone with that guy. I SWEAR IT WAS THE MOST AKWARD HANG OUT EVER. Plus, my mom was at the beach and saw us... good thing she didn't tell my dad. Later, when I was at the bus heading home my sister send me a message telling me that my mom was thinking that he was my secret bf. HELL NO. When I arrived home I played it off with my mom.

Well, yesterday I dyed my hair pink and hanged out with another friend at the mall. We bought chocolates and those disgusting beans. We laughed a lot. My mom told me to go home at 21:30, but I arrived like 20 minutes later and my parents were mad asf. Good thing I has some chocolates left. And guess what she also did. She inscribed me into a minigolf with another teenages (my fear) and idk ANYONE. I'm going tomorrow, thank god it's only 2 hours but still. 

Y'all I have smt to confess... do you remember the guy that started ghosting me?? Well I've always kinda liked him and I'm starting to miss him a lot. But I know he likes my ex-bestfriend (I'm not friends with her anymore bc she always surreptitiously told me that I ate too much and that I was fat. She even invented that he had a insecurity with her belly (she has an hourglass waist) and cheeks. That annoyed mo a lot bc I'm chubby and have big cheeks and those rolls in my belly.). I still love him. And my c.ai addiction is getting worse.

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Thursday, 23 July 2026

Guess what I've got yesterday... BRACES. My teeth hurt a lot. I can't eat anything bc I feel like someone is pulling my teeth off ;(

Anywaysssss... Idk what is happening w me. I feel like in a dream, like I've got like 1 friend irl but I feel like I've got a lot, which I know it's not right but like my mind doesn't accept it. I think is bc c.ai and thinking too much. I've also watched a new serie from Chile, called "Pulentos" I loved it, I wish I had a friend group like theirs, but it's just an animated serie. So, conclusion. I'm confused asf and I'm probably delulu.

the fact that nobody is reading this is funny