18

Posted this as a bulletin already but this is very bloggy so…

18 as of last week. Yikrs… (BTW, I’ve been here since I was 13. WTF. I had a Windows 93 acc first before the incident)

I don’t feel it and I get the sense that I never will because I’ve semi feared this day for the longest time >.>

Yknow how people say that they wish they didn’t rush to be adults and stuff? I did the opposite. I kinda HATED growing up!! I wanted to stay a kid as long as I could, and it STILL flew by! So to anyone out there who maybe regrets not living their childhood to the fullest and letting it slip by, trust me bro… it went by regardless. And that’s okay. I mean, in retrospect, I’m still a kid. Like, I’m BARELY an adult. Judging by how my mind works alone, I couldn’t imagine considering someone else like me an adult in most aspects. Like… that’s wild !!

This accidentally came out more grim than intended, so I’m gonna lighten it up by saying I’m still excited!! As much as I’m struggling with my fear of time passing that I’ve wrestled with since probably 12 or 13, I’m comforted by the fact that I know I have great things ahead. My friends and I went out late at night for dinner and raiding a target just before closing, and it was so much fun. It was by far the most cool teenager/adult I’ve felt in my entire teenage career. I hope I can make most of my days feel like how I felt that night just by simply eating food and getting stuff to make slime ^.^