The Fake Deep

Does any other girl (or guy idk maybe) continuously wish they were as deep and as introspective as they dream. I so badly want to relate to the sad Fiona apple mature sophisticated intelligent girls but I feel too immature and as deep as a kiddy pool without the proper vocabulary to articulate how I feel when it seems it comes so easily for these other girls. I think and feel a lot all the time but it just feels like I’m not feeling enough or thinking enough to be on their level like they’ve all found a home for all their emotions and thoughts and I’m just lost. I just don’t understand what every other girl has figured out that I haven’t I read books maybe not super deep ones but I do, I listen to music that truly resonate with my soul and again I get jealous because artist like Fiona Apple, Mitski, Lauryn hill  perfectly portray what I’m feeling but in a way that makes them seem so good and thought out and make me feel like a mess and a bad person, I don’t know if I even put that into actually words and not alien language anyways go stand in a corn field and lay on a cow

-Pervertedly yours