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Hey everyone, there‘s a thought that has been weighing on my mind a lot lately and I thought it might help to gather some advice or hear from those of you who have already made it past this stage I‘m currently stuck in.
Ever since middle school, I was set on going into science, specifically, I wanted to study medicine. Back then, whenever I sat in the hospital waiting room, I would watch the doctor and nurses moving from room to room, tending to their patients with everything they had, easing their suffering. I have always admired how human can save lives with nothing but their fingertips and their intellect. I wanted to become that exact human too.
I love biology, chemistry and all their related fields but art has always been closest to my heart. Since starting upper secondary school, however, my perspective has shifted and so has my long-held dream of this profession. Suddenly, I find myself wanting a career that truly reflects who I am.
I love to write, to pour my thoughts onto the page in ink. To others, it may look like scribbles but to me, it‘s a tangible piece of my soul - Something I can hold in my hands, something that won‘t be lost among the vast, overwhelming thoughts that have swallowed up so many small, beautiful ones. From elementary school all the way through upper secondary school, various teachers, independently of one another, told me that I have a flowery, poetic and expressive writing style and that it would be a shame if I didn‘t put that talent to use. Along the way, people keep pushing the idea to become an author, to turn it into a career but above all to never let this gift wither away or be forgotten.
I find that idea so beautiful but almost too beautiful to be true. I can‘t shake the feeling that art just isn‘t held in the same regard as medicine, engineering, teaching or the like.
Art is too abstract to be praised, too intangible to be labeled, too boundless to be measured, too alive to be confined. What can‘t be controlled is often feared. And what is feared is being devalued.
How did you guys cope with this inner chaos? Any words of wisdom?
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raspberrie
i have the exact same issue..im interested in so much, and if I like something im certain I could become good at it, except for advanced math, but job fields are so narrow
I feel you so deeplyyy We share the exact same perspective. I only get one life and I refuse to spend it chained to a single career with no space for anything else beside it. But I‘m still so unaware of what other career paths even exist, precisely because they‘re so unknown.
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SCREAM THIS INTO THE WORLD PLEASEEEEE
and then everyone acts like I have to know my profession at the age of what? 15? its so stupid, we've barely experienced the world, and its not like the job market stays constantly the same (as we see now)
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Keerfloey
Are you my twin? xd
I don't plan on studying medicine, I think it's TOO complicated, and I'm afraid of, idk, what if I kill someone lmao. It's stressing honestly, and I don't think I'd be able to even do that. So, I really admire doctors and all those people.
Anyways, what I do like is biology and chemistry... but I also like art, both since I was a kid... I like everything related to the arts and sciences, and I do write and draw, except poems, idk.
I really can't assure anything, because I haven't even gone to college yet, but, I just graduated. So... first of all I must remind you that this is my case and what I think it's best for me. Idk what's your situation or you possibilities or anything. So, just mind you. I recommend you... literally talking to yourself, have a dialogue with your heart and mind.
What will I study? Biology. Will I leave art then? No. I really wouldn't study art, because... like, everything is democratized now, everyone has access to it and everyone can learn if they want. AT LEAST, in comparison with a science like Biology, there you even need the tools, unlike something with art, like, it's easier to find a pencil than a microscope. That's my opinion at least, idk what kind of art you'll do besides writing. But, at least I won't study art, I feel it's unnecessary and a waste, but that depends on your views of course, maybe you are willing to, idk, work in that? Like, you also have to take that on count... what will you work on that? How are you going to live? Because, I get your romanticism and all... but, ok, how are you going to get money? Unless you're rich, idk your situation, but, you need to think on that ok? What work will you take and are you willing to work that? Because, for example with medicine, I don't imagine myself even taking a class on college, like, it's too much, nor working or taking night turns... no, no, no, that's why I recommend you should have a dialogue with yourself, your heart and your mind. Ok? Sorry for this wall of text. If you have any questions or more doubts, you can, well, reply, or whatever.
I spent all of yesterday turning this over in my mind, talking it through with my older sister who truly understands my situation. She asked me a simple but profound question: What really makes you happy? The idea of studying medicine, being locked into that one field because it‘s so incredibly demanding and one of the toughest degree programs out there? Or a career where you can be creative on the side, where you are able to write books and still have room to breathe?
As we talked, it dawned on me that I have deep respect for medicine but I can‘t see myself giving my entire self to it. Not when I‘m someone who yearns for creativity. And looking back on my school years, I‘ve often wished for more teachers who truly understand students with a foreign background, who don‘t give up on us as quickly as white teachers tend to do. I‘m living that reality right now, especially in upper secondary school. I‘m the only student with a foreign background passing this year and I carry this heavy worry about next year, about how far I can really go when hidden racism and discrimination are constantly lurking in the background.
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So as a result, I‘ve started seriously considering becoming that empathetic teacher who stands by every student, regardless of their skin color, age, mental or physical abilities, gender, religion and so on. And at the same time, I could still pursue my own creative passions alongside it.
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