back after a long long time - 18062926-0200

used to linger here for so long back when i first made this account but was too scared to say a thing. came back 'cause honestly, i feel the most seen on the internet (all my life). like, i go out and meet ppl and they're chill and all, but i feel like i gotta maintain this front lest they realise i am somewhat not normal?? ｃｒａｚｙ ｆｅａｒｓ， ｉ ｋｎｏｗ

idk if i'll make friends here, or form a community even 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚌𝚘𝚘𝚕 𝚙𝚙𝚕 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚒𝚛 𝚌𝚘𝚘𝚕 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚌𝚘𝚘𝚕 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚓𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚜! def makes me want to keep making stuff (my unmedicated adhd ass keeps picking up hobbies and picking up more T-T)!!

i also feel like other parts of the internet (which i do continue to use) expect a level of manicured presentation, something refined and up-to-date and i am trying to attain that but i kind of miss the days when i used to crawl on to minecraft servers and make friends and talk about absolute nonsense! or having a messy blog that didn't concern itself with seeming hella intellectual or anything (thus me typing like i'm texting or sumn).

depending on the topic, my lingo/typing style might change. 𝚍𝚎𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚗 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚜 𝚝𝚘 𝚖𝚎, 𝚖𝚢 𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚖𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚋𝚎 𝚏𝚒𝚌𝚔𝚕𝚎. but i wanna stick around and pour my thoughts somewhere, and here seems like a fine place too do that!

thanks for reading all of this! next post will be less sulky and self-pity-ish!

𝖘𝖎𝖌𝖓𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖔𝖋𝖋!