god I hate cutting

I've cut weight before, it's not that bad, but that was during high school wrestling season, when I had to cut weight down to move weight classes so I could face against guys I was much closer to in strength, some of those heavier guys would clobber me alive :P

in my defense, there's a 100 pound weight difference between those guys and where I should be so not my fault inherently.

but now, I'm out of high school (just graduated two weeks ago, thank god), and now I'm back to cutting weight and holy shit is it much harder than I thought. It's been nothing but me staring at the scale and being like "go down go down go down" and when it doesn't go down or god forbid goes up I'm like "oh shit" and that's not the WORST for it to up a touch but floating around 195 post everything hasn't been easy because sometimes I just shoot down to 190 and sometimes I'm back where I'm started.

broooooooooooooo what do you mean this is "normal". at least I'm cutting smartly where I'm just having two big meals a day that have a lot of protein, plenty of carbohydrates, cardio + abs every day, and proper lifting five times a week, to be fair, I just started so I'm bound for this to resolve itself soon enough but eughhhhhh, caloric deficit how I loathe thee. The general trend has been downwards but still, it's frustrating.

anyways, that's kind of it, sorry I've been inactive, I'll be back to writing soon, I promise.