School yuri with my friend

Context

I have a group of friends from another class since last year, my best friend introduced me to them because they did some kind of Demon Slayer roleplay, she knew that I liked Demon Slayer, so invited me to get into it. We would just call ourselves by the respective character name and act a little like them, lol.

I was Douma, and there was a girl who, at first, was Tokito, but soon after she became Shinobu, so I would play Douma with her, something flirting, but just into the roleplay, at least I never especified if I was seriously flirting with her, but okay, the roleplay kept happening, this was getting a little put of hand, and we started to go further... But as she chatted something a bit more spicy to me in the end of last year, her mom looked into her phone, and found it. Somehow we "convinced" our parents that it was just a part of the roleplay, wasn't serious, and as the time passed, things got colder between us, and we just kept as normal friends

This year our group keep doing roleplay, but now it's jjk, I'm Mahito and she's Yuji btw LOL.

What's happening

Now we don't have an exuse to flirt, after all, Yuji and Mahito deadly hate each other... But, I don't know how or why, but she fell into me. I mean, at the start we would just be near, hug a lot, share food, even if sometimes if felt a bit gay, you could just tell that we were just playing, not anything serious at all, even if it was kinda suspicious when she sat in my lap and grabbed me hard in front of others, BUT OKAY.

( Oh, I forgot to mention before, but I kinda liked her too, but I never planned to say it to her, I would just look at her from far wishing her, and be happy when we were together and really near each other, even if it wasn't really supposed to be serious. )

One day, let's just say I was at that day that you get horny asf, and I, as a "joke", asked her to go to the bathroom ( I DON'T KNOW WHAT WAS I THINKING ), pretending like it wasn't serious at all ( she even told me that she thought it wasn't serious, IT WORKED ), so she just agreed. The school break on the other day, we got there. At first we seemed lost and just was laughing to try to keep things light ( there was a tension between us that we didn't knew how to break... ). I don't remember exactly who did the first move, but somehow we maneged to get near each other and get our firt kiss, finally breaking that feeling of "keep things as we're just playing", no, that was serious, that was... Honest. I hold her in my arms, we kissed passionately a lot of times, I finally hold her like I always wanted to, not just playing, but honestly, not pretending I didn't love her, but SHOWING my love for her. Unfortunately, the bell rang in the middle of it and we had to go back to our classes, but with the memory of what we did kept in my mind, and hers too, as she would say after in a letter she wrote to me.

It wasn't supposed to happen, but it happened. I was straight, so why did I want her...? Her body, her face, her voice, everything felt magic to me, different from everybody else, and... Why did she want me back? It could've just kept like before, when everything was just a joke, but now it was basically bare love.

She sent me some letters saying how she loved it ( we did it more times, almost everyday, we even french kissed, but we never got way too far, because, after all, we were at school. She did say that she wanted to really have s3x with me in a letter of her, she gave me that letter yesterday, also saying how she loved me and what we do.

But... I don't really know what to do, I never thought that things would go this far, I don't think that I'm ready for this, I'm a fucking disaster at loving, I don't have much experience, THAT WAS MY FIRTS TIME FRECH KISSING T-T.

I can't really meet her after school because her mom never let her do anything besides going to school, that makes things more complicated, and also, I don't know if we can keep going to bathroom together... Because somehow the school discovered this and told us to never go to the bathroom together again ( I told them we went there to talk far from our others friend ), they are investigating this... Tomorrow they're gonna also call us to the principal's office, I don't know who reported us ( or maybe I know, but I can't do anything about it ), but I don't know what to do. If two days without her kisses already drove me crazy, how am I supposed to never ever do that again? Because I know that after that, anything that we do is gonna be something that's gonna get us fucked in our school life. Oh, just a little detail, but we study in a Catholic school, which makes it even worst.

( Sorry if there are any spelling mistakes, English is not my first language. )