Bedtime thoughts 06/09/26

I'll make this look pretty tomorrow. It seems like too much effort right now, especially on mobile. There's something extremely depressing about realizing that you're growing older. I try not to think about it, but it's those little things I notice, and every year as I grow older they seem more common. I've always hated the stupid millennial core bullshit because they so desperately wanted to hang onto their childhood. I can't bring myself to ever stoop to their level. I guess i'm just waiting waiting waiting hoping that it's like a giant mountain and as soon as i hit the peak i'll be okay and i'll be able to live with it. i don't even know what im saying and i know that no one will read this. but perhaps it's good for you to talk like this. or something like that. i dunno. i wish i could take my feelings in all their intricacies and put it into words on a page. i'm going to be okay i definitely will! i know a lot of people question the purpose of diaries let alone public ones. I think i'll appreciate it when im older to be able to look back and feel nostalgic. speaking of. it's so odd that you have no idea that the time you're currently living in could become one of the most nostalgic things in your life in the future. in a way, it only becomes so meaningful after it's passed. i think that's really pretty. i'm going to go to bed, good job me for ranting about stuff no one cares about. おやすみ