como se elige que hacer con tu vida?/ How do you choose what to do with your life?

Aún nose que estudiar y me queda tan poco, siento que la media se ha pasado tan rapido que el tiempo me esta ahorcando, además siento que todas las decisiones que tomo y no tomo me estan arruinando la vida, siento que ocupo un espacio que no deberia ocupar, que mi presencia molesta solo por estar, no me gusta nada, no me apasiona nada, todo lo bueno que hacia ya no lo hago y nose como puedo volver a sentirme asi, como alguien exitosa, probablemente era igual ha ahora pero me sentia importante, quizás era porque a los 15 soñaba con tanto y pensaba que podia cumplirlo pero ahora con 17 me siento tan vieja... y no he cumplido nada, se que es tonto porque sigo siendo super joven pero ya cuando salga del colegio quiero ser alguien, quiero cumplir cosas, pero es que nose que son esas cosas y nose como lograrlas, ash nisiquiera se si la especialidad que escogí es la correcta, si mis amigas son las correctas o si mi color de pelo es el correcto, me siento tan confundida y deprimida, no sabia porque pero es porque se acerca mi cumpleaños, el 18 de junio, cumplo 17 años, voy en 3ro medio, una edad y curso que pensé que nunca llegarían y acá estoy sin poder elegir nisiquiera una actividad que me guste o apasione, necesito hacer algo por mi vida pero nose que es ese algo

How do you choose what to do with your life?

I still don't know what to study, and I have so little time left. I feel like high school has gone by so fast that time is suffocating me. Plus, I feel like all the decisions I make and don't make are ruining my life. I feel like I'm taking up space I shouldn't, that my presence is a nuisance just for being there. I don't like anything, I'm not passionate about anything. All the good things I used to do, I don't do anymore, and I don't know how I can ever feel like that again, like someone successful. I was probably the same as now, but I felt important. Maybe it was because at 15 I dreamed of so much and thought I could achieve it, but now at 17 I feel so old... and I haven't accomplished anything. I know it's silly because I'm still super young, but when I graduate, I want to be someone, I want to accomplish things, but I don't know what those things are, and I don't know how to achieve them. Ugh, I don't even know if the major I chose is the right one, if my friends are the right ones, or if my hair color is right. I feel so confused and depressed. I didn't know why, but it's Because my birthday is coming up, on June 18th, I'm turning 17, I'm in 11th grade, an age and grade I thought I'd never reach and here I am without being able to choose even an activity that I like or am passionate about, I need to do something with my life but I don't know what that something is