New Era

6/6/26

Today's date satisfies me. :)

Anyways, it's been quite some time, hasn't it? In my absence, I graduated from high school, got a job, and, if I'm being honest, I got better... like hella better! It feels as though school was all that was wrong with me, and I know that's not entirely true, but it sure does feel that way. I feel so much lighter now that I don't have to return to that place every day. No early mornings, no piles of assignments, no crazy deadlines or busy-work teachers, and, most importantly, no more of those damn kids. I blame the concept of school when the culprit was the people, innit, who made it nightmarish. No, I don't hate school. I just always felt bad. My whimsy was stolen, and every day felt like a humiliation ritual: no friends, no groups to hang out in, no people to sit with. Fun fact: I sat alone almost every single day in the cafeteria. There were only, like, seven days in total when I sat with other children. Bummer innit? But it's over now. 

I started redesigning my SpaceHey page. I kinda regretted it as soon as I started because there was just something so low-pressure about the original setup. Now, it's just a whole lotta code everywhere, and it just doesn't hit the same way. I dunno, I just wanted an updated "Koi's Pond." Even though I don't write here consistently, I still wish for this corner of the internet to reflect me and grow with me. I want the new page design to emit a bit of maturity. Yeah, that's right: Newfound Maturity. I'm not grown by any means, but I feel the change from high school. I'm growing out of my own misery :) hooray!

My new job is quite buns, but my coworkers are my everything. I love them so much, especially my closing crew and the new shift lead. Generally speaking, they're all older than me (late 20s-30s), but my gosh! They sometimes remind me of a school environment; it's the alternate reality where I actually found people to hang out with. My genuine concern is that I'm lowkey being a bit of a goober weirdo by the way I interact with them. Perchance it's too affectionate. Not like openly. But just always being "there," and wanting to spend time together. I explained it poorly. Sigh. 

With every new era comes a new Huzz lmao. I've decided to woman up and make the first move again! Hopefully it goes well! 

I still gotta solidify my skincare routine. The goal is to do it every day at the same time, in exactly the same way, so it becomes muscle memory. I'm not quite there yet, tho. Ugh. and on an unrelated note, I realized I forgot to add my start time at the top. Oh well, it's 10:38pm now. I'll be back eventually

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