SUMMER!!!! THANK GOD!!! + fighting with my hair again >:I

I was never a big fan of Summer growing up. I live in Texas and I'm fat. It's hell. But over the past few years I have really taken a liking to it! As long as I stay inside through most of it! I feel like I've been stuck in this awful transitional period between Spring and Summer for the past month and a half and it suckkkeddd balls!!!

I'm a creep and a weirdo and I have to do the same things at the same times of the year every year or else I explode and lose track of my hours, days, months, and years. It's very disorienting. Last year was majorly fucked, I was sleeping on the floor, no A/C, no privacy, all of my personal belongs were packed up aside from some of my comics and movies, and I was relegated to using a 2006 macbook for communications, that could have genuinely exploded at any point (it's battery has since been removed and is no longer a literal bomb threat). So technically I am having a better year. However I was really rolling with the punches last year. I feel like I have not been happier since. And it's stupid but like my life was SO BAD that even the tiniest bit of good shone brighter than ever. And I can't get there again! I am just normal depressed forever now! No matter how hard I try to appreciate everything I feel like I am drowning forever! 

Anyways that's not the point here. The point here is that I didn't do the same things in order last year due to the circumstances and now this year feels all out of wack because my brain wants to go back to LAST years fucked up activities and that's just not possible anymore. I know what the solution is and I'm working on it. Which is "just do what you always do in the Summer but adjusted for the new living space and circumstances." But just telling an autistic person to "just adjust" is evil and is making me want to bash my head into a wall. I'm really, really trying and it's just not GOING.

But. I sat at the dinning room table in front of the A/C (praise be!) and watched The X-Files while holding my cat and eating an orange. So that's better than nothing.

Okay, huge semi-meltdown rant aside: my hair :(

I am trying to grow it out and it's taking foreverrrr. I can actually hear the electric razor calling out to me like the Green Goblin mask... but I mustn't shave my head! I mustn't!!!!! I want long hair for once!! It's just this really awkward length right now, It's too short to tie up, and too long to style how I usually do down, but the layers are too short to move to a longer style. UGH! I made this smelly shit today that's supposed to help grow it out, and I'll be applying it twice a day (as often as I can) for three weeks. It's in my hair now, so after I shower I'll take a before picture to monitor the progress!!