My personal experience as someone who is 15 years old and has mental health conditions

When I was 10, I started having hallucinations. At a friend's house, I saw a monkey playing the drums like in Adopt Me, haha. Since then, my life has revolved around exams. Last year, I was hospitalized for severe depression and anxiety (F23.0). Neurological tests also determined that I have ADHD, and I was tested for autism, but the doctor hasn't said anything yet. This is a summary of everything. As for school, I've had several meltdowns, which is humiliating. It's cost me my reputation. Sometimes interacting with my classmates is embarrassing. I feel like my friends are embarrassed by me too. I think I'm clumsy. Socializing is very difficult for me, not to mention concentrating. I try to dress nicely every day so I don't look so bad, but I always will. With my family, it's difficult. One day my father tried to strangle me, and don't even get me started on everything my mother has done. I try to be grateful for the world, but sometimes I feel limited. Does anyone else feel this way? Or am I just being lazy and blaming everything on my problems? Sometimes it's all so difficult that I isolate myself and cry. I try to be better for others and not be a burden, but living with all of this is agony. Help!