Feeling immature

So like two months ago I saw this video abt the new way pigs are slaughtered so its more humane blah blah blah. Thing is, they still feel pain when they’re killed—or at least when they’re put through the machine that kills them. Anyway, I made the decision to stop buying meat and see how long that lasts and its still going strong but I just feel immature about trying to be more conscious about things like this. I already go for cruelty free products but I still get things that have animal products in them so it just feels like Im being picky or acting holier than thou or smth. Ive never been the super activist type and this feels like retribution for doing nothing to doing the bare minimum but if its the bare minimum, is it even worth it?