fuck

my uni entry exam is two weeks away and i did no shi since the year began im so nervous i was too relaxed cause im basically exempt from maths thanks to job im plannin to do in da future but even so ive to solving all other lessons in the first periodt of this exam and there is also a time limit im slow af 

im trying my best to study but aftee a few hours all my passion disappears ik thats causw im lazy but i cant do anythng im trying to focus but my attention spam is too low ig i will have to extend it for another year and its one of my most fears due to sum problems about my countrys natural disasters and family problems i really dont wanna exposed to my fam at all especially to mom

and its the worst when im totally focused ans going good w study but then i be remembering him and thinj about how things ended this way and startin settin up scenarios in my mind to get a better¿ end w him but now thinking it with a clear mind theres no good ending to us we would got tired and bored to each other eventually considering how opposite out personalities are

without noticing i end up havin daydreams about him again from now on i hope for myself to get better in every way and do something for my future