looks

i don't really know how to feel about how i look, i'm not really happy with my body, and in my opinion i'm ugly.

although i don't really have a problem with it, throughout my life i've gotten used to living with it. i'm a firm believer in the so-called "pretty privilege" because i have noticed a difference in the way i'm treated compared to, for example, someone attractive. it's not like i'm treated horribly (that's mainly why i put up with it), but people who are prettier than me are treated better.

of course i've tried to change, at least what could be changed, and i've noticed some success in doing so, i haven't changed a lot but there's a slight improvement to say the least. what i haven't noticed is a change in the way people treat me (although luckily i don't receive a bad treatment; it could be better in my opinion).

But at this point i'm alright with feeling better about myself. i still have a somewhat negative self-perception regarding my appearence, specially the issue of considering myself as ugly. i've had support and reassurence regarding that aspect from my boyfriend. of course, he has helped me a little to improve my perception, and of course i appreciate it, however, i know that i am unnatractive (at best)