Small rant (I think?)

Sooo it's summer break and all. Unfortunately I can't really make a lot of cash over the summer just YET because I don't really have a car so I can't go get my license and yadayadayada. I know, totally lame. All the workplaces are preeetty far from the house, and all the ones hiring just won't respond to my applications, which also sucks a lot. I tried opening commissions but I'm still pretty new to that and I don't have a super large audience so there's not a lot of room for advertisement or roping in potential customers (anybody wanna see my art hmu this is a shameless promotion) 

Also, Mattel dropping the pride dolls right now???? I'm BROKE and I'm maaadddd. I want to see MCR in concert really really bad so I've been trying to save up to do that, I'd totally kill to see them with PtV but from the looks of it I won't be able to afford that trip without a job (which I haven't been able to get). Maybe my friend will actually go to Louder Than Life, and I can pay for a one day pass to that?

Aside from that, it's just been a really boring summer so far. I feel like my friends are pretty tired of me ranting, and since they're mostly online and my irls are all busy I don't have much of a reason to go out. I also don't hang out with my online friends a lot. Usually they're sleeping or busy as well. I just feel kind of lonely all the time, which, is probably my responsibility to fix, but it feels so hard to make genuine connections anymore. Everybody seems to ghost me after adding me, and that's super uncool. 

On a more positive note, my Halloween plans are going well. I'm also really excited for my record to arrive, love Danger Days. I'm hoping that I'll end up moving soon enough so I can finally set up my own bedroom (awkward living situation rn) and that'll also be great. I swear there's nothing worth doing in Illinois, esp Southern Illinois. I'm sooo close to Indiana, and everybody in the state that sounds even remotely cool is like "oh, I'm in Chicago!!" and? I've only been to Chicago once, didn't stay very long whatsoever. The nearest mall is at LEAST 2 hours away.