great here it comes back (TW: ed,body dysphoria)

so i was looking at food with my friend and i was called fat and i checked on a "bmi calculator" that im a "healthy weight" when ik im not and i realize now that i should start fasting bc of this bc it is stopping me from some stuff and js being lazy and i want the summer body i just wanna be skinny like the other girls showing off their body for the summer and being able to fit into xs while im stuck at a m and a l i just wanna be able to fit my pants again im sorry about this second rant but someone made me realize whats best for me rn so i might not be on as much anymore