update? :/ (TW: mental health and body image)

dude i wish i wasnt a fat chud that had all these mental problems i wanna be happy and actually not yk create problems with my boyfriends but i cant and i js wanna be skinny but i dont wanna like starve yk and idk all these problems have been preventing me from actually doing what i love recently which is sociallizing and playing games idk sorry for going on a rant