lifes getting strange

Howdy Friends, 

I've been gone for a while but a lot has happened, first I got an acceptence letter from my dream college back in march. though after i got the letter my mom started to speak fear into me saying oh its to far, or how are you going to handle yourself. which was pretty annoying but my grandparents were all for it even with the slightly high cost but one day while I was at work my mom convinced them to get me to go to the local college thats 15 - 20 minutes away. so I declined the offer for the other one think that maybe I could live on campus atleast to get out off the house for a while cause it too crowded. but my mom just thinks I have bad financial planning if I even though of that as an option. so.. I'm trapped living with my 6 family members for another 2 years.

so I'm currently saving up for a car or house so im not stuck in the house all the time. even though if things keep going how they are ill just settle for a bike because even though i've had my license for over 3 years and im fairly confident in driving on my own. if i wanna make quick trips i gotta wait on someone else to take me (which is rare) or I have to drive with my older sister in the car with me even though she herself can't even drive.

I just want freedom from this house but I don't know what to do I feel stuck like I can't anything I want but walk around my neighborhood. Im so tired, my sibling are constantly rude or belittling me if I don't act how they want me to. my mom wants me to succeed with my art but only at 'HER' pace and not my own. all i do at this point is work, school, sleep. Im so bored with my life but ill just keep being hopeful that I'll someday be free.

(sorry for the bad grammar or writing I'm a bit bummed ૮(◞ ‸ ◟ )ა)