im so touch deprived its not even funny

one thing a lot of people dont know about me is that have never had a partner, never held hands romantically and ive never even kissed anyone. and thats fine yk im 15 i dont have to do any of that stuff yet but the thing is i am so touch deprived. i usually give my parents hugs before i go to bed its like routine. but when i do that i dont really feel anything and i guess its because it doesnt actually have much meaning? that sounds bad but you know what i mean. when i say im touch deprived i also dont mean it in a sexual way i just mean like i really just want a meaningful hug, a shoulder nudge, holding hands, literally just touching my arm or something idk whats wrong with me.

okay a vent kinda but maybe someone can relate or tell me what to do

poppy out