Dino Girl Gauko as my spirit animal - a rant

I am trying so hard, so fucking hard to be optimistic. It's like I would be in a good mood for a week and then suddenly the next week JUST has to go shit. or yk what. maybe I'm overcomplicating things?

One thing I love about Gauko is how much she resonates with me. She's not the Dino Girl because she wishes to. Gauko is just an ordinary teenage girl navigating through her youth/ Yet as she's trying her best to be optimistic, there's always someone/something that's getting on her nerves. Be it her annoying classmates, her careless parents or just nonsensical sign placings. Gauko hates her dino form and tries to avoid it at cost, to no avail. All the bottled up emotions at some point explode, leading her to turn into her dino form. Hence destroying half the city

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How does this resonate with me? Well, I, like Gauko, often try to be optimistic. I mean we only have this one life to live right? So why not live it to my fullest potential? Yet, it seems like the universe is out to get me? Just like Gauko, there's always something that finds a way to ragebait me. Like Gauko, I try to ignore it, leading all the emotions to bottle up. So when it finally explodes, my sisters are the ones facing my wrath. Not my proudest moments

However, that begs the question? Is the universe really out to get me or is it all in my head? One thing about Gauko is that she tends to overthink things. She's more in her head than she is elsewhere. Which also applies to me unfortunately. Or perhaps not only to Gauko & me, but also you?

A lot of us are so trapped in our heads that we tend to overcomplicate simple matters. I was feeling absolute shit like five minutes ago because I couldn't find a birthday dress. Dramatic? Very much yes. However, just taking a minute to reflect made me realize: its not really about the dress but other matters I had been bottling inside of me. Getting out of your head is sometimes all you need to have a good day. Give that a try of you haven't already!

that was all for my self-reflection, toodles!