stupid rant

seeing how much I talk to my friends and they seem uninterested; I thought that maybe blogging was for me. cz yk. yap about whatever and people don't gaf, some of them pretty supportive. I hope I don't get proved otherwise 😥

it's the 3rd already!! 6 months passed by so fast, I swear I forgot anything that happened past march. well, people always talk about growin up, and I'm still pretty young but 16 is no joke. 15 is a filler year, 14 I disassociated so I don't remember anything. sometimes I want to be old, 19, but then I see people and their struggles and I sit and wonder. 

so my grades went from 100 to 40. well, some. idk what even happened

this summer break, I don't know what I'll be doing. friday I go to the psychiatrist, so that's also worrying me. I forgot what I was gonna say here lol

I am kinda drained by the things I do on the internet. why is it so hard to find people to talk to 

anyways I'm going back to studying