questioning meself

a question thats always lingering around my head a statement that hurts the people who reads a truth that always break myself apart do i hate people ? I've been feeling like this alot, since the train of thoughts never stop. It hurts to even think about it, it's hard to say it out loud, i just miss being cared, as it was a pleasant memory that i wanted to go back to What a shame that i've broken the time that i needed, i should've did something, be the better man or something.. i dont even know what to do anymore, i dont know.. i dont.. know.... i dont know i dont.... know. I'm feeling stuck, and there isn't any hand to help, i can't just scream for help or communicate anything.. i can only write my thoughts aloud on this blog that i'm writing on I just want this feeling to end, or if it can't, i'll just find a way to cope around this feeling and lock it up to never feel it again, i dont want to ever feel this again. I hope to see myself in a better future, never looking back at the wrong past ever. ever again.