Feel.

I'm tired.
really tired of fighting

I'm tired
of pretending I'm okay

I feel so empty without them.
I don't think I can keep going under these circumstances.

I'm just so tired

i practically scream, cry, beg for some type of attention some type of help.

it never works.
it always flies under the radar

ive always tried to give to my best ability 

but i never recived the same effort 

even when i did it was always half.

i dont care anymore.

i never felt this hurt or empty when clover was around.

now that theyre gone all i feel is hurt and dullness and just a overwhelming feeling of emptiness
and i hate it.
so. so. so. so. much.

i cant take feeling like this any longer
its so painful