Fuck im like the stupidest ever

Dude i freak out over the dumbest crap. Like i cannot enter anywhere near a place if i get even the slightest feeling that this very specific person im scared of might go to that place. Im terrified of the entire state of texas bc when i was 8-9 i met someone on roblox who then continued to talk to me on discord and from there you can see where its going, he allegedly lived in texas but who knows at this point. I also block anyone i think looks remotely similar to the person i mentioned before, not the texas guy. I dropped out of the ib program partially because there was one kid there that i had zero classes with that i passed in the hall who was friends with someone who gave me an ED and that person was friends with the kid i block everyone over, they became friends like a while after too so they didnt know really im just scared of them. The kid i dont see every day that im scared of, they are a little dumb and maybe failed a grade but also did percussion for a bit and as a percussionist now im terrified they're gonna join perc and they id have to drop out band because i genuinely cannot stand that though. I used to think there were cameras in the trees outside my window watching me because of him and i couldn't even say anything because id have to admit what he did to me which wasnt even that bad. I overreacted too much this is stupid.nothing really happened with any of these people. The one guy was in a different state so he couldn't actually touch me. Im over my ED now kinda. The other guy didn't actually have cameras in my trees i think and even then theres no trees close enough to my window now for that. 

And yet i still have nightmares sometimes.