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For the longest time, summer used to be the worst season for me.
Everyone always talks about summer like it’s the happiest time of the year. Going out every day, late night drives, friend groups, parties, festivals, making memories. But for me, it mostly just felt lonely. I never really had the kind of friendships where people would ask me to hang out or spend whole days together once school ended. Seeing everyone outside while I stayed home made me feel like I was wasting my teenage years.
Winter was easier. At least in winter, staying inside felt normal. I could sit at my PC, play games, and nobody questioned it because everyone was indoors anyway. But summer always felt different. The nice weather almost made the loneliness louder.
But this year feels completely different.
Over time, I slowly realized that a lot of the people around me were making me unhappy. I was stuck in a negative environment that drained me instead of making me feel appreciated. Letting go of that wasn’t easy, but starting my apprenticeship honestly changed so much for me. It felt like the beginning of a new chapter in my life. ( ꈍ◡ꈍ)
For the first time, I found people that actually feel right for me. Real friends. People I genuinely enjoy being around, people who include me, text me first, want to make plans, laugh with me, and make normal moments feel special. And now when the sun is shining, I don’t feel that same emptiness anymore. Instead of dreading summer, I finally understand why people love it so much oh my god. ◝(ᵔᗜᵔ)◜
I’m genuinely so grateful for the people I’ve met and for how much life can change within a year. Sometimes you really don’t realize how much a bad environment affects you until you finally leave it behind.
This is probably the first summer where I actually feel alive instead of left out.
To all of my irl friends reading this, Thank you so much for everything (˶˃𐃷˂˶)
PS: currently writing this while chilling at the beach omg life couldn’t be better ^_^
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ItsNotYou21
LOVE YOU TOO HG(,,>ヮ<,,)
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Leone ♪
I've noticed that this year seems to be going well for a lot of people. So many of my moots are suddenly going through transitional stages in their lives and moving forwards. It makes me so happy to see! This is also going to be a really good summer for me because I'm moving for uni in August ^^ Unfortunately I won't be near the beach anymore so I'll be going to the beach as often as I can before I move to take advantage of it
Honestly yes!! I’ve noticed the exact same thing. It feels like so many people are finally leaving bad phases behind and starting new chapters in their lives this year
it’s such a nice feeling seeing everyone slowly become happier and more comfortable with themselves.
And omg moving for uni sounds so exciting!! Even if you won’t be near the beach anymore, at least you’ll have this whole summer to enjoy it before August ^_^ I hope this summer ends up being full of really good memories for you before everything changes
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C4STIN
I never related to a post this much
For nearly 8 years I was stuck with a friend that drained me. We knew eachother since 1st grade and we finally lost contact in high school when we went to diff schools.
I met a new friend group and now I have friends I can be genuine with. I'm no longer scared to share what I actually think because I know they won't be mad and leave me alone.
I know thet feeling like you finally belong and honestly, best feeling ever.
And I couldnt be happier for you that you found friends that don't make you feel left out.
Hope you have an amazing summer <33
I relate to this so much
people really underestimate how draining one bad friendship can be, especially when you’ve known that person for years and think you just have to stay because of the history. And exactly!! Having friends where you don’t have to overthink every word you say is honestly life changing. Realizing you can finally be yourself without being scared they’ll get mad, judge you, or leave you is such a freeing feeling.
I’m really happy you found people that make you feel safe and included too <33 it honestly sounds like we both finally found where we belong after being stuck in unhealthy friendships for way too long.
I hope you have an amazing summer too and make a ton of good memories with your new friend group :’)
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