hmm it has been a while - kinda updates & dilly-dallying

bello bello bello again! welcome in, welcome all! 

it's the one and only mr pinkier j. wilson, coming at you with a majorly average blog post!

it has certainly been a bit since i was last active here... hmm, how unfortunate is that!!!!!! life has been really life-ing!!! -- and i don't necessarily mean that as a bad thing!!!!

i'm not exactly sure how long it has been now since i moved.. probably a little over three weeks? but it really feels like i've lived here forever now heh. so much can happen in such a short time.

i've gone back to schooling/education, but i'm starting veryyyyyyyy slow and careful because i've had such a hard time for such a long period. --oh yeah! for context! my name is pinkier, and i have autism! + i have had a very hard time with my mental health for most, if not all, of my life. -earlier this month i moved out of my parents house and into an assisted living type place!! that change has been much needed and it has been great for me, but the waiting time BEFORE i got here was really awful and i was very very depressed. i'm still trying to find my own balance with everything, (social life, personal life, practical life, etc.) and figure out how to take care of myself. 

i am very much a work in progress, and i did only just move, so there is plenty ahead of me.

anyhow!!! onto stuff i wanna chat about/what i have been doing:

ever since i moved i've been using scented candles all the time, heh. i am SUCH a sensory seeker when it comes to smells!!! i freakin love scented candles, or anything scented really... mmm, but i don't really know where to get any..? we don't have a bath and bodyworks where i live. (pretty sure we don't have them in my country at all) - i've been trying to get some when i see them! like sometimes grocery stores just happen to have a scented candle or two, but most of those just smell like soap and that's not my thing... so does any1 know where to get scented candles in denmark without buying them online? pretty please with a cherry on top?

having to rely on myself for a lot of things has been weird. me?? independent arc??? -- i'm sad to admit it, but i've only every used a washing machine myself once... um, i do feel very spoiled in that aspect, but my parents also never asked or made me or my brother do any of our own laundry... kinda wish i had learned how to do it before i moved out but oh well. another thing is something as simple as going to the grocery store (or any store for that matter) and using my own card/going alone. being autistic and being very very socially anxious growing up i never ever went to the store on my own!! ever! but now i actually have to reallyyyy think about it and provide for myself. it's fine because i have enough money!!! but i just get so so so so nervous and anxious whenever i have to go :(( hopefully the more i do it i will be less scared i will be! a fear to conquer!

i got my TV and DVD player finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN WATCH MY COMMUNITY BOX SET AGAIN FINALLY OH MY GOD I MISSED COMMUNITY BEST SITCOM EVER AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!! will be binging that in the following week heh

last weekend i went home to visit mah parents and grab some of the stuff i forgot to pack. on the way there i told my dad i was craving a donut all day and he said he'd buy one for me :D HECK YEAHHHH!!!! it was best donut ever ohhh myyy godd. i love donuts... i don't really have a favorite of anything, but one thing i can say for sure is that donuts are my absolute favorite dessert. SO SO SO freaking yummy. i've genuinely been craving donuts for half a year straight and i was so happy to finally get one it was like heaven actually. also i was really happy to go back home, not just to see my parents, but mostly to play sims 4 on the family computer... strange, i know, but the version of sims 4 on the home computer has so many packs... and my own laptop is only basegame... so i was really excited to play with packs, okay!!!?

hmm anything else.. oh yeah i've gotten to pet 5 horses in the past week, they are so epic! i was never a horsegirl type or whateva when i was growing up, but you betcha if i had a horse i would be OBSESSED. i'm a teeny bit jealous of people who got to have horses or take riding lessons growing up... but eh, at least the place i live now has some nice horses!

i haven't been painting or drawing a lot recently... i'm always either busy, don't have any motivation, or wayyy too exhausted to start anything :B guh!! also other creative stuff like my GIF making has gone completely on the back-burner!!!! i miss making!!!!! ack! all i have done is occasionally junk journal and doodle a tiny bit..

i thought i would have more to talk about but it seems not...