-4. Anxiety :3 (TW: SH)

I'm too lazy to search for a layout so is just this lol and also bc I'm on phone (soon I'll be able to create my own layouts, one of my assignments is about html and css)

How is everyone, i want to meet people through here 😭

Today's entry is about anxiety, at least how i experience it...

I have no idea since when i have it (yes, i am diagnosed lol) but sometimes it feels like fucking shit, it feels horrible to grin my teeths, to want to rip my skin and hair off... the last one i had was because of not liking my body, you know, the usual :> i think I'm too used to feel like this lol but i took meds for it too... clotiazepam, and yes, i quite didn't like it because it made me dizzy, but I don't take them anymore, prolly because i told the doctor I don't need them anymoar :3 and half of it was true, the idea was to use it when it was ABSOLUTELY necessary, but then ine day came and i took like 3 or 4 of it with 1 escitalopram (only one because I didn't have more water) and cutting my arm... and the doctor only makes me take another depression pill now, not anxiety, maybe because it was the only problem now... but i still feel anxious... but hey, kf you feel like me, please seek help :( it does not feel good to feel like this tbh...

also, i remembered the people that says "oh I'm so depressed :3 and have adhd too!!! :333" like on tiktok, seeking attention without having actual problems... LIKE WHY BRO -.- yea we get it, you romantize something you don't have, now pls shut your mouth ok? :3

i don't have anything against people who makes it an aesthetic, i do it too lol but don't make it if you don't have the problems, my problems are not your aesthetic -.-

prolly you don't understand what i say, sorry :"3 but yeah, i write faster than my brain works lmao

that's it, i have no idea what else to say, and classes are about to start.............. cya! :3 i hooe someone sees this and wants to speak to me ("°n°)