i am a pathological liar

okay, so im not actually a pathological liar. i mean, ive never been tested for anything bc those tests are fricken expensive. so i want to hear what you guys think abt my whole lying situation. 

ive started to notice recently that i have a huge problem with lying. mainly to get out of things or just to exaggerate stories. i never really noticed it bc i used to be friends with people who would never call me out abt stuff? idk why they just wouldnt rlly look out for me like that. but now my new friends call my lies out every single time. which i actually appreciate. 

im now known for lying abt anything. 

my likes, my experiences, my dislikes, or even my random thoughts. ive noticed that most of my thoughts that i tell ppl are not really mine. theyre kind of fabricated to make the other person happier. i used to say it was because it was a convo starter to just lie about knowing something. but i lowk do it wayy to much. like if i know someone likes something, ill make up a lie about that same topic. 

lying is js kind of easier then telling the truth. like when someone asks what i did that day, or how i felt, or what i like, i kind of just lie. like yes i definitely spent lunch in the science room, and yeah im totally angry at you, and of course i like tyler the creator. those were all lies ive told today. which like theyre not bad, but like theyre lies. and i guess lying is bad but idk. 

so yeah. i rhink i lie because it makes me feel safe idk. like if i told the truth, everyone would hate it. i hate how that makes me look insecure bc im not really, i just dont like telling the truth. its just not my first thought. 

does that make me fucked up or attention seeking? i hope not