Braindump

Okay first off my weekend sucked so so bad. I am completely swallowed with dread and anxiety, and I can barely get out of bed. What's making it worse is knowing that I have to lock the fuck in by Wednesday!!! I am so scared that I won't be able to pull it together and I'll have an actual breakdown first day on the job. 

But whatever. Who cares. Today I decided to play Star Wars Episode 1 Racer (on PC with a joystick of course, I'm not insane), which I haven't touched since like, last August. However, since I had not played in months and months I completely forgot where I was and how to fucking drive. Dudes. What the fuck was I on last year I was hauling so much ass!!!! I had to downgrade my pod I literally couldn't control it. I was hitting 1020 top speed without overheating. It was crazy!! I was like 'okay. jesus, I'm going to go back to Anakin until I get the hang of things' (I was playing Mars Guo). I HAD TO DOWNGRADE ANAKIN'S POD. Literally I don't remember kicking so much ass in this game last summer.

Random thought that has been haunting me since Friday. I want to get a cute set of matching jammies because I've been staying home so much and I'd at least like to feel cute. Well. Hear me out on this. Jackass lingerie. All black set, cami tank with grommet straps and black lace, panties with the skull and cross-crutches on the front and "jackass" on the back. This is so beyond funny to me, not only because it's Jackass lingerie, but because of the thought of me wearing it. Let's just say my thighs are not exactly "picture perfect" anymore. I personally don't really care about it, I'm at fault ya know? But other people get weird about it. So the Jackass lingerie kinda adds a buffer or something idk. The thought is very entertaining to me.

I'm having to ration out my coffee for the next two weeks and I think I might be going through withdrawals. This is so awful I just want a cup of black coffee.

My weekly schedule has been thrown all kinds of off. I barely feel real anymore what do you mean it's Monday?? At least I'm watching Final Destination 3 tonight. Final Destination 3 save meee..

I'm trying to re-do my page a little bit but I'm having so much trouble putting images in the interest boxes?? I don't know why but they are just not workingggg. ugh.

I'm so hot. Why is it already 95F feels like 101F. Please. Seriously the only thing keeping me going is the though of cookies and cream ice cream next week.. I am counting down the days.