reading lately

2026/05
back on this site because honestly!!! where is my voice!! where is my space !!! idgaf abt my irls rn and discord servers so exhausting that shit feels like an interview !! if everyone here is a bot thats honestly fine whatever. hello astroboy. hello wall e. hello sophie <3 near you

reading CULT OF CUTE CONTENT ( https://digitalfairybucket.s3.eu-west-2.amazonaws.com/THE_DIGITAL_FAIRY_THE_CULT_OF_CUTE_REPORT_FINAL_FOR_EXPORT_1597c24235.pdf ) honestly reminded me about this place but on god i feel so silly not knowing html

rereading witch hat atelier since the animes out and im reading it with my sister and shes acc making me loose my fucking mind like girl get your anger issues checked out. I told her who i predicted her favourite character would be then she was like oh why and i was like hehe just cause and she went no tell me and so i tell her and started HITTING ME?? AND PUILLIN M|Y HAIR?? because i said a SPOILER??? BECAUSE I SAID AGGOT WAS JUST LIKE SASUKE, "quiet genius type who gets defeated by power of friendship"?? girl why do i even have a mouth IT WAS A JOKE. what the hell. then she goes and shades me and goes you should read it by yourself if you want thank god also WHY do you HATE ME? READ IT WITH ME?? this woman is crazy. i wish i didn't live on this EARTH with EVERY CLIMATE CATASTROPHE so the weather was nice. and that i did not happen to be a poc woman like holy shiti could go for a walk. i could go for a 5 hour walk nobody would fucking miss me but if i do im gonna get kidnapped or worse yelled at by my dad like stfu you and (my brother) him literally always leave the house ALL THE TIME. YOU HAVE MY LOCATION. you check it ALL THE TIME. You don't let me go on public transit. what is left for me.

anyway witch hat atelier. you are so cute. wow. 10 stars. i hate fascism and capitalism thank you for reminding me shirahama. go support palestine ( https://arab.org )

reading gsgw/stuck in a ghost story still gotta work novel and its the best novel ive read in my entire life and i read for a living professionally. academically. (english degr). im so hyped for the manhwa. quick summary: coward man gets isekai'd into a horror story and works for a company that makes manuals/collects data from horror stories (darknesses) in their world. if you get enough points (gained after each darkness is cleared) you get a wish ticket. hes trying to go home. he must now face the horrors. idk man tis just a phenomenal work. every arc is so fast its never boring all the characters are interesting

reading the epic of gilgamesh again. first time i read it was a few years ago in a prose translation and honestly was so boring but im reading it in verse (sophus helle) translation and its honestly so good. the way the unknown/misssing parts are shown makes me yearn for the whole thing. and now my beef with gilgamesh's rep like hes literally fictional!!!! he's 2/3 god and 1/3 human!! why does everyone know him to be this misogynistic homophobic guy acts like a powerscaling lobotomized twitter user?? he is a horrible tyrant until his people interfere and pray to the gods who made enkidu as the solution!! Enkidu was made to deal with gil either by killing him or subsuing him in combat but they realize how similar they were and enkidu dealt with gilgamesh through understanding!! they could have ended the clash in more violence but they literally chose understanding do not be homophobic rn!! gilgamesh literally starts to become human after meeting enkidu he becoems someoen you sympathize and learn FROM and WITH.  

gilgamesh you are my goat. my non westernized icon (srry jesus the white ppl got ur ass and are drawing you as a pretty white man in his 40s with pale skin born in the fucking churches of america but i know who you are my good close friend jesus of nazareth) (fuck isreal btw) mad as hell for christianity i was just reading the preface of Spinoza's Theologico-Political Treatise

mann i got absolutely no friends and no social skills but fuck my sister for stealing the ones i do have. and my qpr so employed i can't even bother. talking to them (both) so little ive looped back to tthe they hate and don't want to talk to me mindset. first of all don't be self centered. dweeb. they are busy. they think your funny. relax. if your reading this hello beloved goodbye beloved

man i need a job if only a reason to not be in this house where i don't even have my own room. what are you doing in the living room?? writing a journal entry on your little laptop? existing?? crying in the living room because going to the closet is too far?? now your just lazy and embarassing. touch grass you disgrace. go learn your religion so you can learn some shame. larping as a devout religious believer rn do not mind me. ohhh gods therre are so many of you gods but at least im not following an abrahamic religion. imagine if there was one being who made you and knew everything about you and your potential. nnope. i need my hindu pantheon to put me in the coloseum and place bets on me. oh speaking of everyone read one ACK comic in your lifetime!! ( https://kelvi.net/Amar%20Chitra%20Katha%20-English/ ) they are so good!!! treating my religion like dc comic book heroes who are all part of the avatar cycle and not even the genuine avatar cycle from my religion but the one from avatar the last air bender im so fucked. we are not reincarinating as a lotus flower. anyway i said allat bc i just read Pradyumna

don't have much left to say bye

tryyyinng to get into / finish

• agua viva by clarice lispector 
• Theologico-Political Treatise by Spinoza (at least a litttle bit)
• play portrait on imagined horizons ( https://dominoclub.itch.io/portrait-on-imagined-horizon )

for arab org literally just search free click help palestine its the one with the red star logo. you click a button that does nothing it counts as ad revenue for the site. money is donated. and fuck you america