This one user who wants to be philosophical

Well hello again. It’s been some time since I used this place for my personal thought dump.

Just to get you on the same page. I’ve always had some kind of problem with social media. I’ve tried to limit my time on it several times over and over again like a cage I put myself in with the keys in my hand. I bet we have one or two other users around here who think the same way. 

Anyway… as for my thought dump. This is a mix of, social media, music, emotions and a desperate act to see something in between lines.

Well… let’s go I guess.

It’s been a week now ever since I stopped using social media. It’s when I found out that silence is like a double edged sword. You can find comfort in silence. You can think and focus during these times… however, silence leaves you with your own thoughts. Silence is so powerful that once you’re in it you notice yourself yearning for quick dopamine release and with enough time you even start  thinking about the quintessence of dopamine. Why do I seek it? Why do I need it? Why are we running after it? And what are we so afraid about when we spend time without it. Does not having any dopamine mean it’s bad? Have we ever tried to stop searching for happiness? Why do we think that sadness stems from the lack of happiness and why did we never think about a lack of both which might exist and might result in nothingness ? Did we ever try to neither feel happy nor sad? Why do we start to worry about happiness once we spend some time in silence? Let’s think it over. What is silence? It’s not the lack of nice sounds. And neither is the lack of bad sounds. It’s just no sounds… so why don’t we try to search for an emotion which is not there or even better is not felt. Or do we actually feel something that is neither happiness nor sadness? Do we feel silence in our emotions? Is the lack of emotions intertwined with us being unable to remember our pasts? We apply emotions into our memories. Doesn’t matter if it’s good or bad. So if we lack emotions do we lack our past? Do we lack ourselves? Can we even exist in nothingness like silence can exist in a world full of noise?

Atleast I wish I could. 

In math there is a class called discret algebra. Why is this so important? you may ask… well

In match you can imagine a room… like the room between two brackets {} in this tiny space we could write numbers or put other brackets inside. We can even put nothing in between the space of the brackets and still nothingness in discrete algreba can be noted. So. If math proves the existence of no existence I bet there is an answer to nothingness in our emotional spectrum.

Anyway. I am tired.good night everyone