happiness and closing time

05/24/2026 

"Lesbian-Blues For No Reason"

I think I rehearse conversations I'm not gonna have way too much, especially considering those conversations would happen with people I probably won't see ever again in a bit over a month. Isn't that crazy?

More time. That's what I need. I know she's straight- straight until proven otherwise is what she said. "But there's no girl in our school I can ever imagine dating," is what she said.

And how much I hate the fact I think she's lying.

I'm the one lying- to myself- to her- to my heart, maybe. To my mind.

It's the one wrinkle in my beautiful, wonderful life.

I love my life.

So yeah, the one problem is that sometimes I feel like I still love her.

Which sucks, knowing she isn't just my crush.

I got those privileged, white, great-life, lesbian-blues.