Ninety Fourth Entry: Still Feeling Crazy

I had a big crash out this morning because I felt embarrassed about the fact that I had been so rude in the vendor discord server. People were just trying to help but I got defensive. I apologized for my behavior and left the server as I felt I didn't belong there anymore. I messaged one of them on Instagram and apologized again and they said it was okay. I don't know how I'm going to get vendors for the halloween event now though. I changed the date for the event as well because everyone kept saying that people won't show up because there will be other stuff happening on Halloween. I kind of took it personally but I'm over it now. They're just trying to help after all. I just wish I wasn't such a crash out. I wish I was normal.