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I dont know why I want to share this, but it’s been bothering me for a while, so… I want to talk about it.
I finally realized why I can’t let this person go and why he’s still stuck in my head. I just… fuck, I hate myself for this.
I like him. That’s literally it. I put up with all that shit because I like him. I only realized it recently..
I feel so pathetic honestly.
I gave him a second chance just to get tossed aside again. At first I genuinely didn’t care, but then I remembered everything again and now it’s hitting me all over again.
I need to get over him already. "Time heals" and all that, but how long am I supposed to wait before my brain finally lets this go? This whole situation is actually so ridiculous it’s almost funny.
My friends cant really help and it’s not their fault, what are they even supposed to do? I gotta deal with this myself.
It’s like trying to force yourself to forget someone when deep down you don’t even want to. Part of me still wants to stay delusional and believe he’ll text me again and apologize someday.
I know it’s dumb as hell, I KNOW, but I still can’t ignore these delulu thoughts.
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ehi
no, it's not dumb at all. sadly, us humans can't control our attraction towards others, and that might lead us to wrong people that are no good to us. still, it's valid. I think you should accept this crush you have on them. forcing youself to suddenly forget them could make the sutuation even harder to bear for you. my advice would be to not get harsh on yourself for liking them. when you find yourself thinking about them, don't force yourself to stop, ask yourself "why am i thinking about them right now, what parts of them that i like..." etc. WHILE recognizing that they are no good for you (if that's what you think) another suggestion would be to keep youself busy. spend your time with your hobbies, humans are most free from while they're playing. in my opinion, the complexity of human emotions are one of the things that make them so unique and beautiful. it's so sweet that you have a crush, have fun with it!
I try to keep my mind busy, but the thoughts still catch up with me sooner or later.
This isn’t the kinda crush I like. In my head, I understand that I can’t be with him because it’s somewhat dangerous and just not a good idea, so Im struggling with the realization that our paths have probably split forever
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