I'm scared.

This might relate to some people, even if you don't relate please give this a little read. I'd appreciate some feedback or advice. 

I'm afraid of getting depression, my mom got it around my age without her going through anything and I'm afraid I might, especially with me losing some friends. I'm in middle school, I'm afraid of losing the friends I love. I already lost a couple because of arguments over dumb things or no communication. I older then most in my grade, it might be a maturity thing but I'm not sure. I don't wanna keep losing friends over things you shouldn't lose a friend over. I'm going into high school next semester, I might make new friends but as you get older it's harder to make friends. The ones I had were awesome but had flaws even my now friends have flaws too, I'm losing them day by day. I'm scared I'll be alone or develop depression. Blogging is a way to say how I feel without being judged heavily. I tried TikTok rant but I don't think I'll continue. And I like talking about how I feel, not bottling it up. Thank you for reading.