Do you ever feel as if you are not human?

Because I feel like that everyday.

I feel as though I was born from a test chamber or I had fallen from heaven, or simply a computer program and never learned how to be human.

Events that would have "normal" people in a state of shock or panic, or excited, sad etc.. I do not feel the same. People have admired me for it, ridiculed me for it, yet I still do not understand.

 Sometimes I change my point of view, for trying to fit in or because my original thought was not valid or right.

 Sometimes I do not because some other points of view are harmful for society or people. 

 I feel as if I have to act "human" at some points of my life, because if I do not people will not take me seriously. At some points I know I must act as if I was a normal person for things I want, such as social acceptance among people, people to help me, or to just have outcomes go out in the way I would prefer. 

But this leaves me with one final question.

What truly is a "Normal" person?

Is it the majority?

Is it the basic person people of their culture would immediately make inside their minds? (Such as the "John doe" character most people think of in America (basic white man).)

Or does one simply exist at all?

Even if one does, there is something I wish to say..

I will never stop being myself.

And you the person who may be reading this should never stop being yourself as well.

Because even if I may feel as if I have to act to be human at some points, being my pure self is much more comfortable to me, along with it being better for my mental health and trust with my peers. And honestly, I do it much more than faking.

And I want you and everyone to feel that same feeling.

So please, I beg. Plant the seeds of your authentic self in the garden in your heart. <3 - LK-09

PS: If you do not like your true self, please, do not worry. You still have a life time to change, however that may be. I believe in you.