Why i dislike my mother pt.1

I got my long awaited period today and I felt dirty since i hadn’t showered for like 4days so i went to shower immediately and I fainted in the shower ( i think i did cuz i sat down feeling dizzy and the water was running hot on my foot I rested my head on the wall closed my eyes and when i opened my eyes the water was running cold and I still felt dizzy) then when i finished showering i sat on the toilet cuz i got dizzy again and i grabbed the sink and put my head on it and closed my eyes and when i opened them i got scared and i started having a panic attack so I grabbed my towel and wrapped it around myself and I started banging on the door with the mop that was in the bathroom and calling out for my mom and nobody answered so I panicked even more and I kept sobbing and crying out for my mom when she finally came in the bathroom she said my face was pale and that i should get up and stop crying and put my clothes on because I was disgusting ( i was bleeding all over the floor and the toilet cuz my flow is heavy okay.) i kept sobbing cuz I was really overwhelmed and overstimulated by everything and my mom hit me and kept telling to stop crying because I was stupid for going to shower right when getting my period and that i did this to myself. 

Lesson learned. Thanks mom im never relying on you again.

Sunz out.