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Hii!! this is my first time logging on in like 2 years!! i was looking back on old blogs n the layout of my profile and i was like a whole different person. i feel like 2025 was the most life changing year for me, but i think im beginning to find my way back to who i am. Ive always been the kind of person who tries to curate personas for myself and sometimes i forget who i even am. The end of last year was probably the most disconnected ive ever felt from myself.
Ive been feeling a lot more spiritual recently, it might be because ive started smoking a lot again, but i actually think im finally healing from everything i went through. Ive been drawing too and picking up old hobbies, i even rewatched deathnote again and i feel so in touch with my thirteen year old self. idk, i think im feeling a lot more like myself again.
I wanna start reading/writing fanfics again, i honestly feel like the only right thing to do right now is become who i wanted to be a 13.
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Lizzzzy☆`°•~
I totally get this, it actually hits really close to home lol. 2024 was the worst year for me tho, and I was at my lowest of low and sorta hated my self, but after a realization that life really ain't too bad for long I made myself get better, and now I can definitely agree that spirituality sorta guided me through (which is the point of spirituality) but I also look back on those times where I was at my lowest and instead of feeling shame or negative feelings towards who I was and those things i went through, I feel insanely grateful I'm moving on and no longer there
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Yo this is so real.
I sometimes I genuinely forget who I am an how I'm supposed to act.
Like the facade became so disconnected from who I actually am sometimes that I don't really recognize it...