Family vent + rant tw heavy

It sucks that I will never be as loved as my sister by my mom

And I hate that my dad is right about it

Like I used to understand when my mom would complain that he doesn’t care. But literally he always loses

My mom takes my sister side for everything 

My sister lies and lies and my mom believes her even while knowing she is a liar. 

There’s no winning. All you can do is not engage or they hate you more

They will even hate you for not engaging all though it’s less

Except it’s really hard for me because I just fucking hate injustice. I hate that she lies about me and my mom believes her

I hate how my mom says she cares but doesn’t care enough to do anything she did for my sister

Imma start learning how to book everything myself it’s never gonna happen

I’m just so tired of this shit I don’t wanna be here anymore

It’s so annoying I hate everything 

I get how my dad feels too he keeps asking me to clean my room but also knows I won’t

I need to I just can’t do it 

He gave up and said that today because I was probably never gonna change

And that put stuff into perspective ig

And my dad said they arnt horrible people but I think they are

For many reasons

I can still love bad people

I don’t even think my dad is very good sometimes. He’s better tho 

And i found a better way to word it. It’s not that they don’t care. Like when my dad said no one in my family cares about me? He’s right. They love me. But they will never care about me more than themselves. It’s like people you see online. You care. But not enough to do anything about it. 

And like it sucks cuz that just leaves my dad and so I don’t wanna disappoint him. But then I can’t do things I wanna do. 

Im a disappointment anyways and I should cut them off

I was at work today and like seriously considering dying next year

Im a pussy so I won’t

But if I have an illness my ass is dying to it

Immediately no matter how preventable 

I hate that I can’t just accept it. I just hate that things will never be fair. I try my best to treat everyone on the same scale but I guess that’s not possible 

I get having a favourite but come on man

I don’t even wanna go into detail about what the fight was on

It’s just not worth it 

Nothing is fucking worth it

I don’t wanna do anything I don’t wanna be anything I just hate it here

Why did I have to be born I would have been fine not existing I’m so tired of this bs I want the world to end just fucking end

My sister said she’d find my account after I let her see my profile

If she ever does read any of this shit she’d still see herself as the right one! 

She always does! Apparently everyone is against me and oh poor me. It’s not that everyone is against me it’s that they don’t fucking care

They all do so much but whenever I come home it’s a shit show. They can’t even admit when others do stuff cuz all they see is me me me me me

“Well I did this this time!” Great. Thanks I’ve been doing that all month. I’d acknowledge their contributions when I am not ALSO doing those tasks. 

Like chores. Great you did the laundry. I have also done the laundry! You have one chore you did it yay! Your over 20 :))

Great my brother did the dishwater! Great! Again your only chore I cleaned the whole kitchen and bathroom so we could actually make dinner!!

“Well your home all the time” and? I have other shit I could be doing? You think I wanna be here? And i don’t mind keeping the house running. I have fun doing it sometimes. It’s that they say I don’t do anything while doing most things. 

Anyways back to the point. If any of them read this they probably wouldn’t think they are wrong. They’d probably think I’m just reading stuff wrong 

Do they even know they’re lying? Or are they such victims that they can’t even see it?

Literally EVERY family member since I have gotten home says it’s better with me here. Are some of them probably joking? Yeah 

But we have to have other people come over and do my chores because my lazy ass siblings can’t do them

They make fun of other people for not taking care of their homes, trashing them and making our country worse. BUT LOOK THE FUCK AROUND!

Your diet when we are not here is 90% pasta. 

How are they not embarrassed!!!?

What’s the point of even arguing when nothing will change

This is probably my last angry rant about this because genuinely what’s the point of even getting mad

I’m a very angry and mad person tho so I may keep ranting to my friends. But. I should drop it and learn that that’s life. I don’t even wish them ill in the future. Their own actions will determine that

And I hope for their sake they shape up

At least my mess is probably caused by a depression and it’s clothes/yarn dirty not food dirty