AHHHHH

I feel so exhausted 

I think my attempt to be someone functional with everything under control is making me fall into madness hahaha

I really feel tired, when I get home I feel like I'm dying, my eyes can't stand to be open and my whole body weighs me ahhh

I want to believe that the problem is that I'm putting a lot of pressure on myself about what to do with my life. I have a lot of things planned, I really have them but not knowing if I will be able to get to them frustrates me a little, I feel the pressure that I HAVE to achieve it, I mean it is not something optional, yes or yes I have to finish a career and yes or yes I have to be good at what I do but sometimes I feel so scared that it takes away my spirits from the whole day

What torments me the most is the fucking university aaaaahhhh scares me because when I get there I will no longer be able to waste time with my friends or fall asleep in class but in college I will seriously have to LEARN about whatever they teach, I mean there I will not be able to go through pity there if I have to know what I do (I am scared of the words I just used) 

And then I go and say "ahhh and what if I get into a career in medicine" 

...... 

I swear I'm going to get a medical degree💜 

But hey, I should stop thinking about things that haven't happened yet and focus on the damn task that I've been accumulating for 2 weeks 

Remember Kids, never say "I can't" because the unconscious has no sense of humor, and Don't trust Google translate and better learn English because that translates what he wants alv